Small bear plays host Part 2
Finally, I have seem to come up with an reasonable answer to the previous entry that I posted. And it boils down to just 2 chinese words: 人心。
Sometimes, I may behave indifferent or even hostile towards people its not because I am that way, its because I am simply clamming up for protection. And as I grow older and start experience what our parents once described as 险恶的江湖, I taught myself to build walls, just because of some really bad experience that I once had. And its because of all this suspicions that had programmed me to behave in a negative way when "THE situation" arises.
Many may be wondering what is "THE situation"? It is a time that arises when others get into trouble which requires our favour in exchange for our personal welfare or will, that we stand out and help that person.
Bloody dastards make use of such situation so that they can squeeze every ounce of kindness out of the people. So what are the side effects? People who are kind by nature will have their kindness slowly drained out until there is barely anything left. At this point of time, the victim will start to be self centred, unwilling to help and feel disappointed with the world out there leaving them to their predicament.
I must confess that I have fall victim to this scenario stated above and am guilty that I have been treating potential friends in a nasty way. Many a times when I help someone I will end up worrying - was I being used or taken advantage of, they never ever appreciated the little kind acts. All theses just leads me to being pessimistic and end up brandishing this evil habit of mine to my friends too. If anyone felt pricked due this nature, I sincerely apologise, but for those selfish dastards, I totally mean it to them.
The more kind you are, the faster you will be disappointed with selfish people as you get to see how self centred people can get.
Build bridges not walls.
